Aunt Joan Carroll Cruz, Catholic author, has been called home....has died.

Aunt Joan in all difficult situations within my father's house as I grew up taught me about the               Princess Saint Dymphna, daughter of a mentally deranged King who was physically as beautiful as her mother the Queen and how Saint Dymphna maintained her purity of heart with the challenges of an abusive father and always encouraged me to be courageous as she was in spite of all the challenges I had growing up as my father's daughter who when he looked at me saw his own mother who he still holds accountable in her grave for his childhood and life.

Sad how so many choose spiritual bondage instead Freedom!!  So many like my father, several uncles and brothers have swallowed the devil's lie that it is dishonorable to have ever made mistakes or have sinned therefore one cannot confess and so their memory gets on overload trying to remember all of the lies they have td in order to not contradict themselves.  So to be safe and try to avoid contradiction....Dad simply denies ever haven taken us to parks, or camping nor any of the other things that my heart has ever cherished.

So, although he had photos out of us taken in parks...I could not honor him by telling him the good things I learned from him then & still remember that I have passed onto my husband as we are camping now...

Like...when I cnsidered the lantern to heavy to carry...it hurt to carry it & I said at 10 years old or so: "Don't wanna cawy...heavy and besides...I don't see any better with it than without it."

Dad sad:  "You don't carry a lantern so that you can see, but so others driving cars see you!"

And so in parks that have lights at night I carry my lantern anyway to honor my father...but he could not receive that honor in his heart for he declared: "I NEVER TOOK YOU TO ANY PARKS"  when we visited on June 5, 2012.

Praying for you Dad....that you before die....come back home to the Lord....to the Catholic Church and receive forgiveness and the peace which surpasses all understanding!   You won't have to keep your memory so sharpened and you'll be able to relax and have fun for real.... www.catholicscomehome.org

 The FREEDOM that is God's best that Jesus said each one of us can have but we must on purpose choose...To choose God's best that HE yearns to give each one...we must lay down our self-righteousness through sacramental cnfession...repentance. 

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Subject: Aunt Joan Carroll Cruz, Catholic author, has been called home....has died.
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From: Mrs Stephanie Carroll Gustavson
Date: Sun, Oct 21, 2012 at 7:38 PM

Through out my entire life from memories of my tiniest days....Aunt Joan was the only person I ever knew well who loved tenderly, forgivingly....loved perfectly always. From those youngest days I recall her eyes were always very sad.  She truly suffered much heart ache her entire life...she a true suffering servant

Stephanie

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Date: Sat, Oct 20, 2012 at 6:45 PM
Dear Stephanie , We are sorry that we have some sad news. Aunt Joan passed away today Oct.20th at around 3:pm.She had heart surgery on Oct:17 to replace a valve, but it was also found that an artery had to be repaired. She recovered some, but the strain on her   heart was finally too much. We are glad we were able to see her often after we retired. This is very sad for us.  Hope you and William are doing alright .                                                                                              LOVE,MOM                        
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From: Mrs Stephanie Carroll Gustavson
Date: Sun, Oct 21, 2012 at 2:04 PM
To: Betty Carroll

Thank you Mother.

No one told us she was going to have surgery.

October 17, 2007 was William's tumor surgery.

This was exactly how Aunt Elba died.

God always takes care of William & I.

Love & Prayers,

Stephanie

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From: Godfrey Beni Date: Mon, Oct 22, 2012 at 1:47 AM
To: Mrs Stephanie Carroll Gustavson
May her soul, through the mercy of God, rest in eternal peace.
Our true home is in heaven, and Jesus Christ whose return we long for
will come from heaven to save us(Phil 3:20).

On 10/22/12, Mrs Stephanie Carroll Gustavson

 wrote:
> Through out my entire life from memories of my tiniest days....Aunt Joan
> was the only person I ever knew well who loved tenderly,
> forgivingly....loved perfectly always. From those youngest days I recall
> her eyes were always very sad.  She truly suffered much heart ache her
> entire life...she a true suffering servant
>
> Stephanie
>
>
>
> Forwarded conversation
> Subject: AUNT JOAN
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>
> Date: Sat, Oct 20, 2012 at 6:45 PM
> To: EstherStephanada
>
> Dear Stephanie , We are sorry that we have some sad news. Aunt Joan passed
> away today Oct.20th at around 3:pm.She had heart surgery on Oct:17 to
> replace a valve, but it was also found that an artery had to be repaired.
> She recovered some, but the strain on her   heart was finally too much. We
> are glad we were able to see her often after we retired. This is very sad
> for us.  Hope you and William are doing alright .
>
> LOVE,MOM
>
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